Monday, January 11, 2010

Grandma Sue



He’s an asshole.
He broke her heart.
He lied to her, and he cheated on her. She put up with it for years.
They say a leopard doesn’t change his spots. He was her best friend’s husband some 20 years ago.
That didn’t stop her.
She lied and she cheated, not only to her friend but to her own husband. Why would she be surprised when he did it to her…
Again…. And again… and again….
Grandma Sue was the best Grandparent my children had.
She taught Savanna to ride a horse, took her to shows…. She held the back of my sons bike seat and promised not to let him fall when he was learning to ride. She cuddled and read them bedtime stories, she told them how special they were, she told them she loved them.
I felt bad for what happened to her. Even if maybe she had it coming…. (Karma’s a bitch)
And my kids love her.
Today my daughter sat in a car waiting for her father to help her grandfather stock hay at his barn. My little girl screamed her lungs out for Grandma Sue… Grandma Sue walked past that little girl. She didn’t look at her, didn’t knock a hello on the window.
Grandma Sue broke my baby’s heart today.
Savanna sat on my lap in tears this afternoon. She whispered in my ear, “Mommy, do you want to know why I’m sad?”
I already knew the answer.
“Why baby?”
She looked down at her little fists and tears dripped down her cheeks, “Grandma Sue doesn’t want to see me anymore.”
I tried not to cry as I held her little body against mine and rocked.
Sad brown eyes looked up at me. “Why doesn’t Grandma Sue love me anymore Mommy?”
I wanted to lie to her… tell her anything but the truth.
I choked. I didn’t say anything. I hugged her again and asked if she wanted to help make dinner….
We all get to be selfish sometimes.
My little girl did nothing wrong to that woman.
It wasn’t Sue’s turn to be selfish.